It’s very easy to tell if I’m overjoyed or upset by something. My sister, who has wisdom way beyond her years, can immediately detect if I’m happy or sad just by the sound of my greetings. It wasn’t always this way though. For the greater part of my life I was always very careful of my emotions in check. I was the kind of person who couldn’t say no or refuse to answer back even if I had been terribly wronged. During those years, the pen was my ally as I would furiously put down anxieties and hurts on paper.
In this blog, I want you to go over my personality. Myself, as a typical teenager discovers her strength after walking away from a turbulent experience during my first year in high school. Not that traumatic incident but it gives me a slap on my face when I let temptations destroy my personality. But this incident made me re-shape and rebuilt my personality. I won’t mention any name, but this guy really gave those people who loves me a headache, like what my mother said “Hayaan mo na siya, sisirain ka lang niya.” I felt something wrong, it’s like a nightmare, and I want to wake up. He really does put sunglasses unto people who see me. I’m not a sun that shines, those sunglasses stand as an instrument for them not to see the brighter side of my personality. It gives them the reason to judge me, to sabotage my personality.
Fame and glory it seems, don’t guarantee self-esteem either. My tita, Sheila Ivy, shares with me, the step she took in re-claiming her true self. Today, the melancholy remains, but the shy girl has been replaced by a determined woman in a full control of her world.
Three factors come in to play the journey towards self-esteem – unconditional love of my family and loved ones, finding an area of competence and faith in the Almighty. Clearly, the roots of self-esteem take place in yesterday’s nightmare, so learn how to plant those roots firmly.
In the spirit of my own faith, I encourage you to discover your strength and weaknesses. Remember, the journey in becoming true to yourself is not easy, but nevertheless truly liberating. So, go girl, flex your minds and have your self-esteem. :) God Bless!
